​Breathing myself out of The Shadows
I find myself breathing deeply these days.
There has been much to witness, much to release much to face and much to process.
I recently had a thought that life isn’t about being easy or hard.
life if Life
And that, for me, encompasses All.

​During my 55 years of walking this earth, I have come to discover that sometimes I must move into the shadows, I must move into the darkness of my being, in order to find the light and this is no small undertaking.​​

These kinds of journeys have often brought pain or been spurred on by deep grief. And with each journey, I seem to know less and expand more.

Recently, I found out a little more about the caterpillar metamorphosis into being in a butterfly. I was aware that a caterpillar turns into slime before rebirthing into the form of the butterfly. However, what I did not know is that within that process, there are certain cells within the caterpillar that fight this transformation, and until those cells die the transformation is not able to begin.

​What I found fascinating about that was that, even though a caterpillar consciousness is different than my own, even with them, there is resistance.
This spoke to me that perhaps resistance is part of this life experience, and it’s not about feeling shame or guilt in my resistance, or even trying to fix it. Perhaps it’s more about leaning into the resistance, seeing it for what it is -a natural part of process- and acknowledging it as I continue to transform and rebirth.
A kind of ‘feel the fear and do it anyways’ thing, I’m invited into. Truth is, for me, it is a necessity so I can live fully, and completely into this life I’ve been given.

​Winter has been a dark and necessary time, AND I am emerging, once again. And like the butterfly, the chick, the baby bird, I must break out of a shell, that once held me.
This spring it looks like leaving my precious and treasured home, in which I lived for 21 years. This home, that grew both of my man-children. This home, that held hamsters, a rabbit and three dogs. This home, that has held both my and my husband’s businesses and way of life. This home, that came to us as such a gift, in a time when we, seemingly, had nothing. This home that told me it would be the place where the women would gather and pray; and gather they did! This home. This sweet home that has held so much, for so many has let me know that we have ‘outgrown’ it. We have completed what we came here to do. Raised our children, built our family, solidified our foundation and it is now time to leave it behind and move into the next season of our lives. A season that sees us not only leaving our home, but the community that home is found in.

​You can image this has brought up many emotions for each of us, as well as for those who have communed within these walls and on this precious little piece of land.
Leaving behind what you know is not easy. Leaving behind what you love deeply is life changing.
We have decided to take the challenge, crack the egg, and invite in what is already waiting for us.
I am forever grateful for how Life weaves in support, in unexpected way, to help us through these hard changes and decisions. My legs are shaky, my heart is strong, and my mind exhausted & willing. And it is here, I remain.
Breathing myself out of the shadows.
For the air in our lungs
For the invitation to begin again
For new beginnings and renewed life
For Illumination Clarity and Wisdom
For Eagle Vision and Hawk Focus
Where does Spring find you, my friend?

#springequinox #spring
We welcome the EAST
For the Breath in our Lungs
For the invitation to begin again…and again
For Spring and Renewed Life
For the Child within each of us and
For the promise that after every dark night, the sun will rise again
And in this truth, we find the Wisdom of Peace

​We call in the guardians of the East, Eagle and Hawk
That we too, like them, will rise above and see the bigger picture
That they will guide us, help us, teach us how and when to use our eagle vision and our hawk wisdom to see beyond our own selves, our own pains, our own sufferings, our own stories and instead, see the whole of all things and all that is a part of it. We ask for help as we learn to lean into the wisdom that there are many things going on, that are unseen and learning to trust that we are cared for in every moment, even during times when we do not understand why things are happening as they are. We give gratitude for this bigger picture view and the peace within it, that passes all understanding.
Blessed Be
Here I remain

​February
Imbolc & St. Brigid's Day
Springs Beginnings
Winters Thaw
And perhaps
in this place
Love will be invited…will be allowed
To Rise
Love shown in troubled times
is the most precious of all
It is easy to love when there isn't
tragedy
hurt
strife
challenge
Bone Love happens when it is hard
Love built with the sturdy, rock solid commitment Flourishes
Love when it hurts creates Fortitude
Love forged in a time of Challenge lives Forever
It takes great courage to stand
in this kind of Love
May we all have such courage
aho
aha
amen
may it be so