March 12th, 2024

March

Dismantling
Distilling
Finding Vulnerability in Strength
Finding Strength in Vulnerability
Being the Alchemist of and in my own Story
Moving with and being Guided by
the air in my lungs
the fire in my belly
the water in my blood
the earth in my bones
Unraveling knit together stories that were not meant to be crossed, but as a child everything was Everything and lines were nonexsistent...
These are the days of Winter
The Wisdom of Challenge
To see with changed eyes
To allow
To trust
To release
And in these challenging places Be Human
For to be human is to be messy
I am made of flesh, blood and bone and there is no shame in that...
I feel disappointments, sadness and grief... I do not hold within all the answers and I don't always know the way.
I stumble*I fall*I disappoint*I hurt those I love*at times I feel lonely and not heard*I am flawed...but there is no shame in this... there is only grace... and acceptance....love and patience
I feel the push if all the"shoulds"
I feel the pull to sit and blame
I feel the pressing in of The Collective Fear...and I weep, I feel unsure, tired, and confused....
And there is no shame in that.
For right along side these shadows of my Be-ing Human is a vibrant heart, hungry for life... this life... this messy, complicated, shit-show life. A life where cartoon characters run countries, mental wellness units are found in basements of hospitals and not all the earth community will eat today.
In the words of the great MLK
I've been to the mountain top... I've seen things that I cannot explain, I've witnessed amazing compassion, heart wrenching love, and wordless courage.
All within the fragile human frame.
Love is The Way and WE are the vehicle
Living an Uncommon Life is a Challenge and can feel Lonely
...and the results will blow your mind.
This is what I am learning
and so I remain